Heavy

Geeeeeeze.  Life can be heavy and hard sometimes.  It's easy for one or two things to get on top of you, but man alive, sometimes eternal sleep really does seem like the better option.  Only, knowing me, i'd dream heavy and hard things that mean it'd be just as sucky. 

When am i going to next be in a place of happiness without the heaviness?  Or even, with a bit more happiness?  

It has to exist...

Tsk, i tut at myself, i have lovely friends and family, that should make me feel much better, but today, it doesn't.  Maybe i just need to see them.

And don't read into this that i'm in a state of depression; i'm not, and do have happiness in my life, its just that atm it's shadowed by heaviness.  But i'm ok.  And will be fine.  I'm sure.